Wednesday, August 25

Better Days

I have definitely had better days. It is really hard to get up in the morning. I need to work on cover letters, but the 5 year old will not leave me alone. He loves having mommy home with him and playing all day. Although I get short with him, he still comes back for more, (true love!)

I am the one taking the boy out of the house, playing at the park, going to the library, and going swimming. I am the one going shopping and making lunch, doing laundry, making sure we practice our communication cards, (for our marriage seminar's last weekend.)

The hubby is doing some cooking, and he does get up on most mornings to get breakfast ready. I am just wondering how anything ever got done before when I WAS WORKING. Oh wait, nothing did get done!

I do not feel strong enough to be a good mom and to be a good wife and to be a good house cleaner. I do not feel strong enough to get out of bed each morning and try to raise my son to be a good man some day. I do not feel strong enough to go grocery shopping on such a tight budget. I do not feel strong enough to go for a walk to the park in this heat! I do not feel strong enough to open my eyes and start this day, the same day as yesterday, the same day as tomorrow.

In my weakness, Lord, you are strong. Thank goodness for that! Please be my strength. Please motivate my husband to find a job, to take a job, anything at this point, with a joyful heart. Thank you for the health of my family and for the food we do have on the table. Not my will, but yours be done. Amen.