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If you met me, you might think I'm snooty and judgmental at first. You might think that I think very carefully about what words I say next or that I am simply thinking deeply.
If you met me, you wouldn't realize that I am self-conscious of my words. I am smart, but not fast on my feet and am just trying to think of the right thing, not something profound or thought provoking.
If you met me, the first thing you would notice is my curly hair, but I really wish you would notice that I am trying to be more like Jesus. You might notice that I am a bit over-weight, but I want you to notice that I am a deeply scarred person that is waiting to be used for HIS glory, His strength in my weakness.
If you met me, would you notice that I want to sing when I'm happy or shout when I'm sad? Would you notice that I try to be loving, but that it oft' times comes off as judgmental? Would you notice that my quietness is nervousness? Would you notice the strength that is in silence or the power of words...
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This one was fun! I might expand on this later! Now, don't edit, just POST!
"Would you notice that my quietness is nervousness?"
ReplyDeleteI so get this! I have that same problem, unless I'm inviting you into my home. Then I will chat your ear off, because I feel safe. :) Glad I stopped over from Lisa-Jo's place. :)
"Would you notice the strength that is in silence or the power of words..."
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful!!
I'm with Heather on this one...that's the most beautiful sentence! Love it. The whole thing was well written...I wish we could meet!
ReplyDeleteso beautifully written :) I love your honesty, I know I can certainly relate to being judgemental at times!
ReplyDeleteI think we are all judgemental if we weren't Jesus would not have taught so much about how not to be that way. :) (Found you from Gypsy Mama...www.thiscatholiclife.com)
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate! It wasn't until running into an old high-school classmate several years after graduating that I found out I was seen by many as a snob...but I was just painfully shy. It is something I have to be aware of and still need to work on daily. I must remind myself that my deep desire to be liked is actually getting in the way of people getting to know me!
ReplyDeleteThanks for visiting my blog. I think it's funny that us girls with curly hair always assume that will be the first thing people notice. And it probably is, but now I see it as a gift and hope you do, too. And I'm always so scared of coming off as judgmental... I usually leave someplace thinking, "Oh Jesus, I hope you can shine through the crap I just said!" :)
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