Five Minute Friday-Feel Loved

Five Minute Friday: I feel the most loved when…

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Actually, at times this is a difficult question for me. I want to feel loved all the time, who doesn't. I know the love of Christ on that cross 2000 years ago.

But when do I feel the most loved? I battle depression. When I know I SHOULD feel loved, I feel... overwhelmed by a surprise because it was unexpected and I don't do well with the unexpected. I feel... disappointed that my son was the one that goofed off through the whole performance instead of feeling proud. I feel... lost and lonely even when my husbands arms are around me.

Thinking of the past, I feel the most loved when my husband sits next to me to help fold the laundry. Or when he says thank you for something that I do every day, not looking for thanks. Or when my mom feels comfortable enough with me to cry outload. Or when either of my sisters decides to speak to me in love, sometimes even knowing that their words will hurt me, but they say the words with such gentleness, that even though the words sting, their LOVE for me stings deeper.

I wish I felt LOVE more. Was watching an old "Friends" episode where Rachael wanted to tell Ross she loved him but he was married to Emily for 6 weeks. She told him anyway because who doesn't want to hear that they are loved.

STOP.

(Now I'm going to publish this without editing! AHH!)